The Strangers Voice

“The Strangers Voice” was released as a single on 23rd of March 2018.




The Music Film for “the strangers voice” some background information…

I wrote a synopsis for a music film that features an innocent man in prison who is about to be executed. The priest comes in and he is taken to the execution chamber. I was going to feature another man tormented by the knowledge of the innocent man being executed for the crime he did not commit. I was toying with lots of ways to shoot and edit this film myself. At the same time I was looking for inspiration from old films. I was looking around for film that is in the public domain and free to use. It was whilst looking through some old movies on The Library of Congress site here that I stumbled upon this film, Directed by Fritz Lang starring Edward G Robinson called Scarlet Street. I happened to click on the movie near the end and started to watch, I was so amazed and surprised by how it fit perfectly. I double checked that it was free to use.

I am no “purist” I love being creative and manipulating imagery, I can edit and mess with images all day long. I could make the images from the movie fit more easily and slickly to the rhythm and beat of the song, I could add colour washes and effects to make it glitchy and modern but instead I left it almost entirely unedited (I made one small edit, so it was the correct length for the song.)

Why did I choose not to manipulate the film? I wanted to emphasize something important to me. I have often wondered if there is such a thing as synchronistic coincidence, as I seem to see it all around me? Sometimes I hear or read something about deja vu or have what I call intuitive perception, a moment in time when all that is supposedly real around you seems to stop or disappear and your mind gets total clarity. It happens rarely for me but it does happen and it happened when I found this film. So that is why I wanted to keep it as pure and real (to me) as the song Derek and I wrote and produced. The strangers voice is one of those songs that “comes to you” and through “synchronistic coincidence” or some telepathic means, Derek and I created a song, I really love.

scarlet street public domain

Here is “The Strangers Voice” music film.

Link to tunnelmental channel on You Tube. The Strangers Voice – music film



The range of my emotions blur

I make no sense at all

I hurt myself to help you

I’m heading for a fall

You say you want my truth again

You wanted me to try

The thought police protected you

So you could live that lie

There’s no escape you tell me

You’re standing loud and proud

Committed to the party line

You’re playing to the crowd

I thought you would betray me

Yet love can make you blind

I could not stop that nagging doubt

From running through my mind

I’m not your Big Brother

I’m not your saving grace

I see you as the stranger

A voice without a face

You’re lost within this matrix

The dreams are all too real

The voice is loud within me

It tells me how to feel

It tells me what to feel

Now the trial is over

Now the trial is over

I can feel the rising pain

I lost my sight, this can’t be right

Are you still inside my brain

Lost and found, sense and sound.

Lost and found, Lost and found,

Lost and found, Sense and Sound.


The reasonable reaction?

me 2 laptops and a boomboxsky

Logic, is it robotic and devoid of emotion? Not when defined by me, for how can I be entirely logical and human? I kinda liked the way Star Trek simply portrayed it through the characters of Mr Spock and later with Data. It was a way of defining our human complexity and it’s faults without being too critical. It was always our emotions that failed us, yet they also defined us. If I carry on with this simple logical assessment of my current “feeling” I will undoubtably come to the “but thats illogical Captain” conclusion. Feelings are simply intuitive to most humans, we are emotional after all. How we are training or teaching ourselves to deal with those feelings is probably one of the most important lessons we can ever learn. It also takes the constant renewal of that lesson, for the more we learn, the more we put that experience into our arsenal of how we deal with our “feelings” it all seems quite logical, doesn’t it?

Why I am questioning myself, today!

Because I am feeling emotional!

Is what I seek just out of my grasp? Probably, is the best answer I can come up with. To reach a better answer, I will try and stay personal with you. Okay, I seek peace and love, two clearly obscure goals, who are almost entirely undefinable and totally subjective. So, the logical thing is to stop seeking the unattainable, right? Nope and I will continue my quest until I die. Why? Is it because I am driven to it by the sad representation of its opposites all around me? Probably, is again the best answer I can come up with. Is it a reasonable reaction? Again, probably, yet I see so many people falter at this and simply give up trying, which makes me sad. Oops, I said I would keep it personal to me, sorry. I do not try too hard to define my personal goals of love and peace, this helps me cope, most of the time. My “feelings” help me more than my logic on this. I have found it is easy for me to accept that life is suffering, it is not so easy to lessen my own suffering by conflict or denial. I have seen way too many people close to me who are in conflict with life and in denial of their own situation in life. So, I willingly accept my own suffering and move forward with my life, I do not celebrate in that suffering, I do not seek sympathy for my suffering, I do not martyr myself to it either, I just acknowledge it and accept it. So, is it possible to find love and peace? Yes, for brief moments in time. Is it possible to maintain them constantly? No, it is not, for they defy any clear definition. Should I stop trying? No, is my answer, for if I were to accept that they are out of reach and obscure ideals, I would stop suffering. Therefore, it stands to reason, if I stop suffering, I stop living. The reasonable reaction to what I have witnessed so far in my life? Continue to seek love and peace, for they are moments of bliss.

Well, I am glad I got that “off my chest” I would like it if someone would comment on my rants occasionally, it helps me re-focus. Nigel.