Logic, is it robotic and devoid of emotion? Not when defined by me, for how can I be entirely logical and human? I kinda liked the way Star Trek simply portrayed it through the characters of Mr Spock and later with Data. It was a way of defining our human complexity and it’s faults without being too critical. It was always our emotions that failed us, yet they also defined us. If I carry on with this simple logical assessment of my current “feeling” I will undoubtably come to the “but thats illogical Captain” conclusion. Feelings are simply intuitive to most humans, we are emotional after all. How we are training or teaching ourselves to deal with those feelings is probably one of the most important lessons we can ever learn. It also takes the constant renewal of that lesson, for the more we learn, the more we put that experience into our arsenal of how we deal with our “feelings” it all seems quite logical, doesn’t it?
Why I am questioning myself, today!
Because I am feeling emotional!
Is what I seek just out of my grasp? Probably, is the best answer I can come up with. To reach a better answer, I will try and stay personal with you. Okay, I seek peace and love, two clearly obscure goals, who are almost entirely undefinable and totally subjective. So, the logical thing is to stop seeking the unattainable, right? Nope and I will continue my quest until I die. Why? Is it because I am driven to it by the sad representation of its opposites all around me? Probably, is again the best answer I can come up with. Is it a reasonable reaction? Again, probably, yet I see so many people falter at this and simply give up trying, which makes me sad. Oops, I said I would keep it personal to me, sorry. I do not try too hard to define my personal goals of love and peace, this helps me cope, most of the time. My “feelings” help me more than my logic on this. I have found it is easy for me to accept that life is suffering, it is not so easy to lessen my own suffering by conflict or denial. I have seen way too many people close to me who are in conflict with life and in denial of their own situation in life. So, I willingly accept my own suffering and move forward with my life, I do not celebrate in that suffering, I do not seek sympathy for my suffering, I do not martyr myself to it either, I just acknowledge it and accept it. So, is it possible to find love and peace? Yes, for brief moments in time. Is it possible to maintain them constantly? No, it is not, for they defy any clear definition. Should I stop trying? No, is my answer, for if I were to accept that they are out of reach and obscure ideals, I would stop suffering. Therefore, it stands to reason, if I stop suffering, I stop living. The reasonable reaction to what I have witnessed so far in my life? Continue to seek love and peace, for they are moments of bliss.
Well, I am glad I got that “off my chest” I would like it if someone would comment on my rants occasionally, it helps me re-focus. Nigel.