Derek and Nigel are “tunnelmental” Photo credit: Paul Beahan.
Derek and Nigel are “tunnelmental” Photo credit: Paul Beahan.
It can get very confusing at times like these, when we see selfish acts rewarded and selfish people hoisted to powerful positions in society. Are you, as a human being capable of despicable acts of cruelty? Yes and if you do them with no guilt or remorse, then you are lost! You truly must find a better way of expressing yourself. There is NO truth in this ridiculous saying “cruel to be kind” it will only lead to “war is peace” and “ignorance is strength” etc. So, remember this, there is one truth, it is your truth.
You cannot escape it on your travels (inner or outer), for it really doesn’t matter how far one travels, you still have to contend with you. I have travelled many years and miles and I can tell you this, mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically, travel can exhaust you. Take the time to rest and think who YOU are and what YOU desire. Connectivity to fellow travelers is often difficult, sometimes fruitless and largely dependent on intention. Intention from you and intention from fellow travelers. When one is in a vibrational field of connectivity, it will connect you to others. I believe we are all traveler’s and we have lost the best way to communicate with each other. If we really want connectivity and not the isolation from others that society seems to promote. We must do it through kindness.
All too often, I forget to understand the power of kindness. Kindness is broad and sweeping in its power, it can be a simple selfless act that rewards the recipient of it and feels right in the giver of it. It’s true power results in love and peace.
We have a duty as we progress as humankind, BE KIND.
I live almost entirely on kindness these days, the kindness of my friends and family.
ALL OF YOU.
LOVE AND PEACE.
This coming year “tunnelmental” will be releasing lots of new music.
Nigel of “tunnelmental” Jan 1st 2017.
DO NOT FOLLOW FOOLS.
We all know it’s wrong, yet we stumble along, I will sing you a song, of the careless…
When we as human beings create a thing of beauty, it is a way forward, a flickering glimmer of light.
I believe we can overcome the darkness of destruction by creating “moments of bliss” for ourselves and share them with the rest of humanity.
Compassion and kindness, that is the way forward. All else is just control system bullshit.
I love what we human beings are capable of, as Mankind we can become brilliant, as Mancruel not so much.
To that end, I Nigel and my music partner Derek aka “tunnelmental” are putting the finishing touches on an album that we shall release in early 2017 “waiting here for you”
Eight songs that we lovingly wrote, recorded and produced in our studio “Orange Groove Studio” We loved creating it and want you to hear it.
Some masks are used to scare or intimidate, others to hide behind; many masks are worn for survival in today’s society.
We are all capable of masking our true potential in a society hell bent on controlling everything we are capable of. It’s almost impossible to find any “truth” in the media and politics. Currently on social media, it seems more like “make a statement, form an opinion and start a fight media” the search for truth is being abandoned.
I do not hide the fact that I mostly use social media to promote my music and art in the hope that it will support the humble and creative life I choose to live. No hidden agenda in that. If I post other stuff it is as entertainment and commentary, hopefully with some humour and information. I like to try and help others and I believe in kindness, so it goes without saying, that I try to be kind when publicly posting anything.
So, back to the point I was trying to make. A good friend and I were talking recently and it got a bit heated, opinions were flying back and forth, it was fun for a little while, then I suddenly realized, she was getting very angry and agitated, I slowly saw a mask appear (not physical) across her face, her words became stilted and her voice a bit shrill, I stopped talking and listened as she worked herself up into a frenzy. I tried calmly to say “let’s stop talking”, to which she got offended and said the phrase my children use when challenged, “you started it” I had to smile and that made things worse. As I left my friends house I thought about how I may have annoyed her and recapped our conversation trying to find what triggered that anger in her, it was not easy, as we had tackled many subjects and touched on many issues during our debate. I tried to distance myself and observe in retrospection the conversation; then it struck me clear as a bell. I can now see that I came across to her as arrogant and righteous. I know I am opinionated but I do try and keep open minded. That “jump to judgment” moment when she got angry and her mask appeared was clearly when I said, “either we are all god or there is no god” which is a contentious and non-provable hypothesis I still stand by; purely as an opinion!
I will continue to have an opinion on all things, I will try to curb my way of presenting my opinion, I will try and ensure that when I get into a debate that whoever I am debating with understand that it’s just my opinion.
So in conclusion, my mask is on, I will try and make it one of humility and consideration; one of kindness and growth, then hopefully it will become the mask of a peaceful warrior. My mask is not worn to hide my true intentions; it is there so I can see more clearly.
Oh, by the way, I apologized to my friend after a couple of days and they laughed, she said it was all just nonsense and I should not be so dramatic….I did not rise to her bait on this and just acknowledged what is!
I like this graph it helps me…
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I will put some of these meanderings on my blog for all to see as I try to find the better me. I know he’s in here somewhere; so much clutter, what a nutter!
I am not looking for an end of suffering, for that is not my business. I am looking for an end to making others suffer. We need a ceasefire in the need for some people using their suffering as a reason to make others suffer. The very idea that we are all suffering, to one degree or another, is obvious to me. To insist that you should feel “my pain”, so you can understand what I am going through is both selfish and destructive.
I do understand how Empathy and Sympathy differ from one another and this simple picture below is to show how I get there, sometimes. Do not confuse what I am writing about as lack of compassion, it is only through compassion and kindness that we can grow.
I know I can use most of my senses well enough to see, hear, feel, etc. So when someone close to me needs help, I usually, when I am able, just offer or just step up and start helping them. I have pretty much, always thought that we all did that, or at least tried to do that. Certain experiences have recently showed me quite clearly how that is not so. Whether this is a shift in society or just a recent revelation to me, is difficult to gauge, maybe a bit of both. I am not going to just sit here and point a finger at society, for after all is said and done, society is really just the collective us.
Oops, I am wandering with my thoughts again, try and stick to the point Nigel, if indeed there is one! Now, where was I? Oh yes, here. I know, I will try and break down my first paragraph; and by the way, if you have made it this far dear reader, well done and thank you for listening. Right, the task in hand, that first paragraph.
Firstly, it assumes that all life is suffering, if you do not agree with that part, wait a few days, more or less, then recognize something in your life you are struggling with. That is your “suffering” for now, you own it, its real and it all yours. You might need a friend to help you understand it, or you might project your suffering into someone else, the latter of these two solutions is what I am primarily documenting here.
If you made it this far “dear reader” then I encourage you to continue to the end, it should not take long, I have to deal with more pressing issues, like directly dealing with my own suffering and helping alleviate a friends suffering at the same time.
So, read once more, the first paragraph please. I just did, it’s a bit of an arrogant assumption but I am experiencing my observation. I could re-write the first paragraph in the form of a question, if I thought I could find an answer but alas, I do not believe there is one. As usual, I am making a statement, an observation, based on my experience, from my point of perspective. The search for truth is littered with unanswered questions and I am ready to accept that. There are so many questions. I should try and focus my attention on a few of the most important ones.
Here is the start of my list:-
Who am I?
How can I grow into a better human being?
How can I help others?
WOW, these are difficult and I am suffering! Boom, there it is, that first paragraph again. Feck it, I am going round in circles. Ooh, hold on wait a minute, this is fun…..WEEEEEEE!
I find that most of the time I only really know that I know nothing. My experiences in life are just that, mine own. Perception is everything. The most important question is who am I? If I am to believe in love, I must be love. If I am to believe in peace, I must be peace. It has become clearer to me of late that looking outside of me and into society really bares little semblance to the world I desire. So, if part of me desires a better world, then I must make it so. The key to that in me is creativity, so I make music. I love making music and it seems to me that when people take the time to actually use their senses, most people do like music. I think there will always be more questions than answers, so I could never be righteous; I just try to focus my questions on what I am able to deal with. Sometimes, I can tackle the big questions, sometimes I cannot, I choose. I will always try and understand and be as kind as is possible. From kindness everything grows, from cruelty everything suffers. I am currently in Los Angeles, originally from UK. I try to dissolve all borders that prevent mankind.
Waiting here for you.
Sending love and peace.
Nigel of tunnelmental.
My thoughts for today….
I do not have any definitive answers to questions/observations about the “blind spot” in “reality” most people seem to have. Maybe social conditioning has them “not caring” or worse.
You know that thing that happens when you ask a direct question to a politician and they answer by re-phrasing the question back at you and appearing clever or smart. Maybe that’s enough for most people, maybe they can accept answers given that way. I would guess that many people genuinely accept “knowledge” is something “given to them” instead of seeking their own answers. I believe that individually driven education is essential if we are to see through the veil of lies and controls that “the system” of government force-feeds us. I am hopeful of humanity because the “hidden hand” is becoming very visible, exposing the truth about greed and its complete lack of compassion. There are many “followers” wearing “blindfolds” and comfortably accepting a very narrow version of what life is. I do not concern myself too much with trying to “save” every individual. Not unlike violent revolution, if you just rip off one control system, another will soon replace it.
Many brilliant and open-minded people who are waking up to “the lie” encourage me by taking control of their own lives. The only way forward for humanity is non-compliance to the control system. The clumsier and more desperate that system gets, the more people stop following its ridiculous rules. I am rambling a bit, sorry.
My duty as a human being is to live, love, life to it’s fullest by experiencing it for what it really is. My choice is FREEDOM. My greatest gift LOVE. My hope for humanity is PEACE.
My greatest challenge is to create beauty from all the chaos I witness in society. So, I make music. The most important question I really seek an answer to is this “who am I”? My latest attempt at understanding the question is an album entitled “waiting here for you” co-written and produced by me and the amazing Derek Pippert, the greatest friend a man could ever have. We are tunnelmental.